Pretty much official

I talked to my Dr. yesterday.. She basically told me exactly what I said in my post yesterday. The combination of factors leaves very little hope for a positive outcome. She gave me the option of waiting a little longer and having one more ultrasound. I felt like I couldn't NOT do that.. Although i have basically abandoned all hope, i guess miracles can happen. There are some scary websites out there about people who were told they were having m/c.. and all signs pointed to that and then they ended up with a baby.. But really.. I'm not holding out any hope..

However, I am having one last ultrasound Monday afternoon. Ironically, first I have to go do my pre-op physical and bloodwork for my D&C, which is scheduled for Wednesday morning. When I talked to my Dr yesterday, she said we would schedule the D&C after my u/s.. but I decided that i wanted to at least have a plan, so I called her back this afternoon and asked her to schedule it. She agreed that it was a good idea. So.. 10:30 Wednesday this will all be over..barring a miracle..
I find the prospect of the D&C a little bit terrifying. I've never really even BEEN in a hospital before, aside from one trip to the ER when I was 5 to get stitches after a dog bit me in the head. I think I'd rather a dog bite me in the head again than do this. I KNOW its not a big deal... just fear of the unknown, I guess.

On a random note.. Apparently Wednesdays and pregnancy don't get along for me.. Both times I was pregnant I got the positive test on a Wednesday. My last m/c I started bleeding on a Wednesday. This time I got the official news that this pregnancy wasn't progressing on a Wednesday and I'll have my D&C on Wednesday. And.. once you type Wednesday a bunch of times it starts to look like a really funny word.