3rd NST and Breastfeeding class.

Yesterday was a busy day!!! I got up at 5:45 and went to pick up my mom because she was coming with me to my NST/ultrasound appt. Evie was finally cooperative for an NST.. They did the NST part before the u/s this time... and instead of a bagel and some juice like I had been eating before hand.. I tried Peanut M&Ms and Pepsi before hand.. Evie didn't even have to get buzzed with the baby taser.. she was moving and kicking and performing yesterday..

The u/s part was neat cuz my mom hadn't seen an u/s yet, except for the pictures, although I must admit it was a little bittersweet cuz Jeff couldn't be there.. He hasn't missed an u/s yet.. and only one other Dr. appt.. I didn't think it would bother me, but I was a little sad when I called him to update him that he wasn't there.. In anycase, she was doing great.. Heartrate in the 140s (its ALWAYS lower at the hospital than it is at my Dr's office, I have no idea why).. 8 out of 8 on the biphysical profile and my fluid level was 15cm yesterday instead of the 11 it had been last week. I am glad cuz I felt like 11 was starting to border on the low side.. They measured her this week, they said they'll do it every 3 weeks.. I am slightly confused, cuz they said she measures EXACTLY 34 weeks 1 day which is what I was according to them (my Dr's due date has always been one day off)..but her weight was estimated at 4lb 15oz, which is the 37th percentile for size.. If she is measuring exactly on schedule, shouldn't she be exactly the 50th percentile? Are they just completely different measurements? Of course I now have a little worry in the back of my head that she went down from the 46th to the 37th percentile in 3 weeks... Although I have always had a feeling she is gonna be on the small side..

Then I dropped my mom off, and went to Toys R Us, just to look of course, but ended up spending $26.. They had those carter's fleece sleep bags that are like 0-9 months on clearance for like $6.80 so I bought two of those, and a St. Patrick's day outfit for Evie. Oh and some lap pads that they had on clearance cuz I thought they'd be good to have. Honestly, I do not love the St. Patricks day outfit.. I think it looks boyish and I'd rather have a little green dress or something for her.. Then I went to work, watched the inauguration on TV.. only had to work til like 2:30.. Pretty boring work day..

I got home from work and then Jeff shortly after.. we had our Breastfeeding class at 6. There was a LOT of information.. I am feeling pretty overwhelmed about the whole thing still.. I don't know... We sort of got to practice with Dolls, but how much can you really learn in a class with three other couples and dolls.. I understand the positions and all, but I don't feel like I'll really understand how to get her latched on right.. Then the instructor asked about breastfeeding plans.. EVERYONE else in the class was getting to take a lot of time off of work. I think they were all teachers, so having spring babies, they all were going to off at least thru september. And I think one of them was planning on taking even more time off. Then there was me.. Oh.. I'm going back to work in 6 weeks and can't pump at work.. I felt like such a bad mom.. I cried and cried on the way home.. That being said, my instructor was very supportive and said it IS possible to pump enough milk ahead of time to stockpile and my body WILL adjust to missing feedings and I can still b/f when I am home. I mean, I suppose the plus side is, I will probably only end up going back to work 25-30 hours.. maybe even less at first.. So I will still get to be home with her a lot.. When I do go back to work, she won't be in daycare, she will be with Jeff or Jeff's mom.. but it still didn't feel fair that everyone got to stay home for at least 5 months with their babies except me.. Certainly I Know I am not the only one.. but I felt very alone after the class.
I do have to start making some decisions about getting a breast pump and stuff. My original plan was to rent one.. cuz I didn't know if I'd need it at all once I went back to work.. but now I realy want to attempt to keep pumping enough to feed her while I go back to work. I think I might still rent one for the first couple months.. but then I think i might make an investment..

Oh, and then at the end of the breastfeeding class, a guy that runs a cloth diaper service came in and talked to us. I had talked to him back in October, and he had me pretty much sold on the idea, especially since there was a service available so I wouldn't have to do my own laundry.. Then I went home and talked to Jeff about it and Jeff nixed the idea. He thought they were gross and especially didn't like that the diapers were pooled when you used a service and blah blah blah.. So, then, after the guy gave his speil, I went to the bathroom and came back out and Jeff says to me.. "We need to talk again about maybe using cloth diapers.." Really? *sigh* Its not that I am opposed to it.. but umm. I have probably more than I need of newborn diapers.. and I'm feeling like its getting a little late in the game to make the switch now.. The good news is, with the service, there is less of a startup cost involved, since you don't buy the prefolds at all.. I'd just need some covers and snappis. (I think this service provides you with one of each.. which probably wouldn't get me very far!).. So.. its a possiblity again.. I just wish that Jeff would have been more open to it 4 months ago before I'd sort of mentally committed myself to disposables. This is the service, if anyone is interested. Cottontails Diaper Service. Oh, and what seemed to sell Jeff on the idea is that cloth diapered kids will get potty trained sooner.. Does anyone know if there is actually any basis in fact to this? I googled and didn't find much.. in fact I found one website (that was pro-cloth) that said it wasn't true at all.