A little sting..

I haven't mentioned it yet, but EDD #2 is Sunday.. I'm holding up OK, pretty distracted with all the fun of planning for the new baby, but a couple things have happened in the last day or so that has brought a bit of bitterness back..

Yesterday I was on facebook, and you know how random people's pictures show up if one of your "friends" comments on them? Well I discovered this picture and at least one but I think two or more of them went to my high school.. they were two years behind me.. so that would make them all 25ish. The each were holding up a sign with how many weeks pregnant they were. I think there was 4 of them.. and then in the comments there was two OTHER girls from that class who said they were knocked up too. So I instantly felt like i was two years behind.. Even though two years ago we were not even TTC yet.. but for some reason that just got to me.. I guess I felt like they were young and dumb and naive or something..

And just now I got the email annoucement that my friend who was due a week after me had her baby early Monday morning. She had a beautiful little girl and I am happy for her.. but can't help but think that should be me holding that baby in the picture..

On a sort of related note, at the laundromat this morning, I started reading Comfort:A Journey Through Grief by Ann Hood. Its the story of a mother who loses her five year old daughter to a very sudden illness. I can't even imagine the pain of that.. So far its an excellent book.. One of the things that struck me as being exceptionally true was she started a chapter with.. "Grief is not linear..." and all this has made me realize that even more.