It had to happen..

I always see posts from Girls on the nest who are sad because friends of theirs are pregnant.. I have been i guess, fortunate enough where this hasn't really happened to me.. I had a few aquaintances get pregnant since we have been TTC.. the former coworker mentioned below and douchey manager's wife.. but not really any of my "friends.."
Until now..
A good friend of mine is pregnant.. I started TTC before she did. I started in May 07 and she started around October.. The thing is.. Is it was supposed to be easy for me and not easy for her.. She has PCOS.. and hasn't gotten AF or ovulated on her own since being off the pill.. And she has had problems with her cycles and periods since she was a teenager.. While it wasn't exactly easy for her.. she did 3 rounds of clomid with her OB/GYN , two of which didn't work at all (She didn't ovulate) and then went to the RE.. This was her first real cycle with the RE.. She did clomid (higher dose than with the ob/gyn) plus the HCG trigger.. She tested over the weekend, but she couldn't be SURE if it was the trigger or a real bfp (i was pretty sure it was real by the timing and the picture of her peestick).. but she just texted me and her first beta came back at 243.. Which is awesome..
I really am genuinely happy for her.. I can't wait to go to her baby shower and see her little baby and all of that.. She and her husband deserve this.. Its great that everything is going smoothly for them..
But I still cried.. kind of a lot.. when I just got that Text.. I am pissed off at my body for letting me down.. Her getting pregnant just shows me that it really IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE AS HARD AS THIS HAS BEEN.. Its funny, reading IF blogs and the online baby boards.. you can almost trick yourself into believing that IF and miscarriage are the norm... but its just not true..


In other news.. I saw something really sad/depressing in the RE's waiting room today.. I was only there for a few minutes...and it took me a minute to piece it together. but it was a younger guy.. maybe even a teenager.. 18-21-ish.. He was there with his mom.. which confused the crap out of me at first.. what was going on? But it turns out he has cancer and was there to freeze his sperm before having chemo or whatever treatment.. so he could have kids later on.. Oh gosh.. this is totally making me tear up...And from what i could understand/eavesdrop... it sounded like it was highly unlikely that his insurance was going to cover the sperm freezing stuff.... I guess that does put things in a slightly different perspective.. even when I feel like I have it bad.. there are people who have it much worse..