Having an angry day.

I had been doing REALLY good lately at not feeling sorry for myself.. and had been feeling like i'm getting to the "moving on" phase.. obviously it will be easier once we can try again to have another baby.. (still no ovulating here.. but all signs point to "soon").. but I feel like i'm READY to try again now..
Annoying work manager's wife had their baby yesterday.. He is a douche and cheats on her and is less than enthusiastic about said baby.. and they named him Brayden which is a little bit too close to our baby boy name of Brady for my liking.. but really.. I was OK with the whole thing.. maybe because I found out she was pregnant before the two miscarriages... i think it was back in september or october he told all of us (After she was out of her first tri).. but I was naive enough still then to think that I would be pregnant long before this baby was ever born.. The birth just didn't bug me.. I was doing OK. So I thought I was on the right track..

And then today.. I recieve a text from a former coworker.. just a random out of nowhere "whats up".. I think I had last texted her around Christmas time.. I think it was probably in that short week when I was pregnant between Christmas and New Years.. but I hadn't told her about the pregnancy.. I respond to her with a generic answer like "same old stuff.." and ask how she is.. and I get "Great! My daughter is turning 1 soon and I'm pregnant, due on Sept 25th."

GREEEEAAAT.. Daughter #1 was, shall we say.. "unplanned".. Some contend that she may have gotten pregnant "on purpose" to get her boyfriend to marry her. I am not convinced of that.. but in any case.. She supposedly got pregnant with daughter #1 while on birth control pills and it did result in her and her boyfriend getting married when the baby was a couple months old.. I hate her husband.. He's a jerk.. but I guess she likes him.. so good for her.. right? Baby #2 will be 17 months younger than baby #1.... she is already 16 weeks pregnant (only a crazy obsessive like me would rush home and figure out exactly how many weeks based on a due date immediately).. so she's out of the risky first trimester..

NOT FAIR.. She had two babies.. with out trying.. If she was trying for #2.. she didn't try for long... I had two pregnancies.. and no babies.. We basically started TTC a week or two after her daughter was born... so here we are a year later.. with nothing to show for it.. and she's 16 weeks pregnant..

I'm just SO FREAKING ANGRY.