Remember how four days ago my pants all fit?

I got my bella band today and to test it out I used it with my smallest jeans.. They buttoned on Thursday evening.. And definitely will NOT button today.. I am going to take this to mean that my baby is growing big and strong and I will see a healthy wiggly baby at my ultrasound on Wednesday..

I own a lot of stretchy clothes.. All my work pants and skirts are stretchy material.. So they all still fit, the problem is the waistband on everything is rolling down.. Will my new friend bella band be able to help with this problem too?

In more serious news.. my upcoming due date for Angel #1 is on my mind again.. It is a little less than 3 weeks away.. It was on my mind yesterday, because my first EDD was also the day that my MIL lost a baby 24 years ago. Baby Joseph was born seriously premature and only lived 3 days.. After the miscarriage I was almost grateful at the time that I wouldn't have that due date anymore. We would not be looking forward to having a baby on such a sad sad day for ILs. My MIL still gets very depressed and acts a little crazy every year around this time. Unfortunately its now a sad day for both of us..

Then yesterday I was talking to some friends about planning dinner.. and one of them said she'd be in town for her birthday weekend.. and then it occured to me, although it had never before, that her birthday is 9/7..

But I am just so not liking the feeling of making plans and stuff for that day, knowing that if things had gone differently, i should be NOT being able to make any plans cuz I wouldn't know whether I'd be having a baby or not.. Its not that I don't want to live my life.. I just can't help but think of what i'd be doing.. This might have been my last week of work.. Baby would have a name and a nursery all ready for him.

I think I am going to take the 7th off of work.. Its a sunday and I hate working sundays.. And I think, that DH and I are going to go to Church with MIL. I am not a religious person, and really don't enjoy going to church.. But I know it would mean a lot to MIL (She does not talk about her baby, she has never mentioned him to me, so I'm sure she doesn't think I know the dates, and she doesn't know about my M/Cs).. and I think I should go for my baby. And the rest of the day will just be like any other Sunday when I don't have to work.. Football and relaxing on the couch.. A perfect day.