Scary night last night..

So.. Last night, Jeff and I had just finished watching a movie (so I'd been laying around all night long..).. And I got up to go to the bathroom before getting ready for bed, and I noticed some spotting.. It was mostly brown, but it had some red streaks in it.. It reminded me a lot of how my first m/c started. So I call my RE's office.. The lady on the phone is really nice, she tells me that its my RE on call.. So that made me feel even better, knowing I'd talk to my own Dr. He called me back in like a minute, and I explained everything to him, including all the cramping I'd been having.. And he basically said.. There is nothing we can do about it.. call if it gets worse than a period, otherwise, just keep your appointment on Wednesday.. I didn't even really respond to that.. because I just was shocked that he didn't have anymore guidance for me than that.. I think he could sense that I was not pleased with this, and asked me when my last u/s was.. and since it was almost two weeks ago at this point, he siad.."Well we can see you on Monday if you want, call the office Monday morning and tell them I told you to come in." um.. thanks I guess.. I know that office has appointment times on Saturdays.. I don't know if they're limited or what.. but I guess I called with the expectation of them telling me to come first thing in the morning.. Or to at least be a little more reassuring than say "There is nothing to do about it.."

So we went to bed, and I really fully expected to be full on bleeding by this morning.. but, miraculously, I'm not.. No more spotting.. Still crampy.. but.. I think the fact that the bleeding stopped is a good sign. The nurse said the cramping could have been from cysts, right? that could be the bleeding cause I suppose.. I don't know.. I just hope it stays away til Monday..

I really lost a bit of respect for my RE last night though. I felt he was very dismissive of me. I had MUCH less spotting than this.. it was literally two drops.. in my 2nd pregnancy and my OB sent me for an ultrasound (the fancy kind at the real ultrasound place), the very next day. Hopefully all is well on Monday and they will release me to my OB.. because I seriously do not trust them anymore. If I do lose this pregnancy and I am supposed to trust them to keep me pregnant a 4th time.. I don't know if I'll be able to do that.